I’m done analyzing, dissecting & reflecting about why & how I feel what I feel. Can I just jump to the end of the story where the [mental] demons are vanquished, love & mercy reign & fear is no more? I have about 12 days left of my Texile (I live in NYC, but have been stuck in Dallas, TX for 2.5 months due to COVID19) & am counting down the days. Lately things have been very difficult, (obvs not just for me.) Thankfully I have lovely friends & family to listen to me, but it’s still tough sometimes, though that’s the way life is at this current moment—but now is not forever (I hope!)